I'm in a funk.


Man, I don't have culture shock; I really don't. I'm just retarded right now and it wont end.

Dunno...I just can't get my shit together these days.

Yesterday I went for coffee with two of my friends who went to India, and it turned into 3 hours of "talking about it." That was pretty much the only time I felt normal and like I had something to say in the last week. Afterwards, I realized that I had left my laptop unattended and out in the open in my office the whole time.

On Wednesdays I have my small group from my church, and last night we did a special crossover with another group, because that group has like 3 members who are still in India, and we have like 3 people who are away for the summer, and so it made sense to join forces for the week. That other group is way into eating when they get together, and last night the couple that hosted grilled burgers, and they were made with BEEF, which I haven't eaten in 2 freaking months, and there were side dishes and wine, and none of it was hazard to eat, and it was amazing. Praise the Lord. I mean...y'all don't even know. But my contributions to the discussion made no sense and my mind wandered the whole time.

I'm low on cash. I thought I found the elusive parametric resonance I was looking for, and then I didn't. I'm constantly sleepy and I have a big blister on my foot. I ...kinda just want to go back to bed.

Here is a picture of me and my friend Teresa, who is a patient at the place where I did most of my volunteer work. She taught me some Bengali and how to wear charcoal eyeliner like an Indian woman. I taught her how to sing "What's Up" by the 4 Non Blondes.



Current song: Denkmal by Wir Sind Helden

Posted: Thu - July 21, 2005 at 01:36 PM        

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